Halloween was a Blast!

For Halloween, I cosplayed as Beatrice ( pronounced Bea-to-ri-che, the Italian style ) from the visual novel series Umineko no Naku Koro ni or When the Seagulls Cry ( the sister series of Higurashi no Naku Koro ni or When the Cicadas Cry, but they don't have any direct relations in their storylines). She's basically the major antagonist at first, but in the end turns into a protagonist. She's the most powerful witch in the world ( The person is entitled Beatrice, so Beatrice's real name is currently unknown ), a.k.a the Ruler of the Golden Land.

When I arrived at my school for the Halloween Party, people were taken aback by my appearance. Why? Everything's summed up in this pic:

Compare this to the REAL Beatrice:

And there you go! My transformation was a success ( Minus the fact I didn't have the tattoo on my right leg. It's... Well, I'm attending my SCHOOL'S Halloween Party! ) People were asking me if they could take photos with me, and to be honest, I LOVE the attention! But some parts of my wig fell off during the party, so in the end I looked like a monstrous and blonde Grandma. Urrrgh, why my wig, WHY!!!??? This is also my first experience in cosplaying, so I'm sorry if something sucks.

My friends also cosplayed! Here are their pictures:
My best friend ( and my secret lover /getsshotbyruechanplz) , Rue-chan was Enma Ai, the Hell Girl! Make sure you don't send ME to hell, Rue-chan!
Lawrence Onii-chan as L from Death Note! So L-ish! But make sure your phone won't be broken!Andomeda-chan as an OC ( Original Character)! She described herself as a Japanese Yankee (Rebellious students )! Well, you look too cute to be a Yankee~!Lili-san as... Well, Lili from Tekken series! You look so gorgeous, hun~! And so cuuute~! OMOCHIKAERI, I'M GONNA TAKE YOU HOME~!!!

Mai-chan, Lili-san's sister was Mio Akiyama from K-ON! I'm so sorry for the blurry pic, but even though it's blurry, everyone can see you're such a cute diva!

I didn't actually enter any of the attractions. I'm a HUGE coward, so I didn't enter the Haunted House at all. I spent Halloween enjoying the food sold in the party. Aaaah, they're really delicious, nano desu~! Except for the tarot reading booth. The fortuneteller was extremely accurate at depicting my biggest problem this year, and I was like "What the--? How could you!!!". That fortuneteller is the first person to know the real and genuine reason why I have always been so gloomy *applauds the fortuneteller*.

So here are my narssistic pics of my cosplay:


I'll post more later in my next post! TTFN, Ta Ta For Now!

HALLOWEEN IS COMING!

Aaaah, Halloween~! It's going to arrive in just two more days~! I'm going to cosplay as an anime character for this year! Who is it, you ask? Well, I'll post about it after the Halloween. Spoilers suck for the majority of people. My close friends know about it, so if you're not one, expect to be uninformed and be completely dazzled on Halloween! I hope this year's Halloween is even better than the already great Halloween we had last year! I'm thinking of actually entering the Haunted House this year. I didn't enter last year since I was such a chicken XD. Haaah, I just hope I will not be mentally scarred after the entry.

... And I have to go for now. I'll write more next time. I just wanted to remind you the Great Emperor Cynthia is still alive~! TTFN, Ta Ta For Now~!

Me Being Mean

A&W cheese burgers are so addicting! It has spotless buns, a great mash of mustard and tomato sauce ,the richest grilled beef you can ever have and a slice of intoxicating cheese. The best part of it is that it doesn't contain any kinds of vegetables ( Except if you don't ask for the pickles to be removed ;) ) ! Seriously, A&W's cheese burger is my dream burger!

So, yes, when you read the first post in my blog your brain will suggest that you should leave this blog since this will be a crap-tastic post judging by the weird introduction that sounds like a commercial, so you're free to go now. No, I'm serious, you can just stop reading right now. I won't get mad since I can't track people who actually read my blog or just skips the entire thing. I'll be honest: I don't know what should I write in this blog. But since my English teacher will literally kill me, I'm going to at least talk about something that interests me ( But maybe the perfect snooze button for you... Just a little warning won't hurt ;) ). Hrmph... How should I start?

Oh, maybe I can talk about the UN day. So for UN day celebration in my school, we're going to have the SECOND movie festival! I'm so happy...... NOT. Okay, this might hurt a lot of teachers, but I'm being pretty sincere here. I mean, most of the students in my school didn't actually create their fancy UN movies for last year's festival by themselves. They had their Kungfu Pandas ( my class mentor, who's also my business teacher, nicknames tuition teachers as Kungfu Pandas. Yes, I also can't understand why. By the way, check out the movies. It's brilliant.) do their work for them. Oh, about the test the teachers gave out to test the students' knowledge about the topics they took for their UN vid? The students just memorized the necessary things regarding their topics just for the test. Seriously, it's really silly to have another project like this. IT'S RIDICULOUS. Students who actually worn out their own butts for their projects last year couldn't come up with something that was as spectacular as the students who had tuition teachers doing their work for them did so they weren't the ones who weren't recognized for their efforts, so this particular group of students are all groaning in despair since they know the students who have tuition teachers will beat them again. What's more, we have to turn up a research paper this year! I'm pretty sure tuition teachers will do all the work again in this category. Yes, I'm being mean. Why? Because I FINALLY have the chance to be mean. I hate being so kind that people will use you, and that you have to bow down to them because you're supposed to be nice to them. So, yes, I'm being mean.

Oh! I have an idea for the next post! I'll have a list of anime and game characters who absolutely worship burgers~! TTFN, Ta Ta For Now!

Why?

First, I am feeling very guilty that I forgot where my best friend's birthday party was. I missed out the whole thing. Even though she forgave me, but I'm still scared she might hate me. Every single friend of mine is precious. I'm such a dumb, terrible jerk who doesn't deserve any friend.

Have you ever regretted of making friends? I know it sounds mean, but now I feel I kind of regret being friends with someone.

So, I have this friend in my life who made me regret the fact he was my first real friend in my new school. Let's call him Mark. He was basically the only person in my first year in the school who was super friendly to me. I felt very happy with his kind treatment of me, so I decided to become best friends with him. I've never had real friends, since I don't trust people. In my old school, people mostly became my friends because I was rich even though I acted like a total jerk ( which is still an understatement). But in my new school, I slightly dropped my guard down since people in my school are already rich ( Even though most of them behave like total snobs ). Mark was the only friend that mattered to me, but then soon I discover more friends. I was so happy I still shed tears when I remember those days.

Then in my second school year, I was in a circle of best friends. I enjoyed every little amount time I spent with them. I especially got close with Mark, 'Lucy' and 'Harold'. We were the closest, the center of the circle. I was enjoying those times until the cursed day of February 14, 2010 arrived. That day was the beginning of the disasters in my new life.

A week before that fated day, we all promised to hang out together. But unfortunately, I wasn't allowed to go even though I told them I would come. Lucy couldn't come at all from the start because of some reasons, while Harold was traveling somewhere far from my city. He was forced by his parents to join them and he didn't have time to contact us that the hang-out was cancelled.. Mark, being the sole person who appeared to our meeting place, had to wait for hours until he finally decided to go home by himself. He formed a grudge against Harold, thinking he set him up to be left alone, and from the start of our friendship Mark already disliked Harold.

Then, on the 14th of February, 2010...

Harold told me he was backstabbed by Mark. I can't go into details in this one, but all I could say is that Lucy started to hate Harold because of Mark. I sided with Harold and kept being friends with Lucy but I gave Mark the silent treatment. It continued like this until the start of my third school year. Lucy and Harold are friends again, and I finally made up with Mark. But Mark still won't forgive Harold for what he did. Looks like Mark has a habit of turning friends into enemies, since now he is being enemies with a lot of his formerly very close friends. Mark is a selfish and arrogant individual after all, and these traits are not very likeable. Unfortunately, these close friends he now hates are my dearest friends. And now because of this, Mark's old friends now acted strange, like they want me to go away from them as soon as possible. I'm deeply hurt by this, knowing they're also my closest friends. I would cry every night, waking up to find that I'm stuck in a labyrinth of hatred. I would wipe my tears and go to school as usual. But I can't take it anymore. It's already hard enough for me to have problems at home. I may not look like a frail person in school, but deep down, I'm just a little girl who can only cry whenever signs of problems appear. I hate myself, I hate my life, I hate them! Why? Why must it always be me who is played around by people? Why do people enjoy it when I suffer? Why do I always let down people even though I tried my best not to? Why, why!? Why can't I trust anyone completely anymore? I'm tired.... I'm so tired of everything.... If God exists, why would God do this to me? Are my sins that horrible? Please save me. The only reason why I am still not dead is because I still have faith in my friends. But that too, is slowly fading....
"Doushite.... Doushite, kana?"
"Why... Why is it, I wonder?"