Risks

Hiya guys~! I'm back~! For today since I don't have a lot of time, I want to share a poem that I wrote by myself, basing on real experience. I am expressing myself in this poem... So, I'll just start.

RISKS

Do I have to cross the rickety bridge?
Knowing across is the happiness I seek
But lurking behind me, the shadows are swallowing me
And if the bridge burns down, I'll be washed away by the waves of regret

I know you've been acting tough, flashing your best smile
You would forgive me even if I do what you despise
But if by doing so, the golden joy will embrace me
You know you'll waste your tears for a worthless being like me

I can't
I just can't
Even if I know that my life will be complete once I did it,
But I can't live my life, feeling guilty for my own friend

Should I sacrifice myself, and feel emptiness once again?
Instead of my dreams surrounding me, holding me tight
The double-sided blade is hunting me now
Time is running away, and my hopelessness overwhelms me

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That's it. The background for this poem is about this friend of mine that doesn't want me to do something. If I do it though, I'll feel extremely joyful but my friend will be extremely hurt. It's not something terrible, but it'll hurt the person a lot. The person acted strong and supportive and told me it's alright if I did it, but I just can't, since the person is my own best friend. And I really want it. I've sacrificed my happiness over and over again and I have to admit, I want this thing BADLY. I don't know what to do anymore....

So please comment on the poem~! I know it's not so good... So I'll make it up with this cute picture I found~!


Higurashi no Naku Koro ni: (Left) Houjou Satoko and (Right) Furude Rika. I do not own this picture~!